Close Every Door To ME

Rebecca said she would like to give me a surprise. I didnt know until Joseph said he would go to play with us. I was too surprised to find out that I hadnt had shower. I went to bed at 8 Friday and didnt take a shower. This morning I thought it troublesome to have shower 2 a day. But if Joseph goes I have to have one!
One thing very embarrassing is that when I invited Joseph to go to SZ, he thought it too forward!! Suddenly I realized that although I did sth similar before, this time is really a bit faster than before. I wanted to explain but could only say "it's nothing to me" to cover up my true feelings. Well I guess Scool will misunderstand me again. He comforted me and that's very nice of him to say so. But honestly Scool, I dont fall in love so easily!! I think Joseph is different from those I knew and think he's nice and knind of familiar... dont know why. Maybe his name!? Yes, I love that musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. Haha! Also Webber's masterpeice. My favourite one isClose Every Door.
" Close every door to me,
Hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows
And shut out the light
Do what you want with me,
Hate me and laugh at me
Darken my daytime
And toture my night
If my life were important
I would ask will I live or die
But I know the answers lie
Far from this world
Close every door to me,
Keep those I love from me
... Just give me a number
Instead of my name
Forget all about me
And let me decay
I do not matter,
I'm only one person
Destroy me completely
Then throw me away
For we know we shall find
Our own peace of mind
For we have been promised
A land of our own!"
This song fits me right? I am only one person, I do not matter...
I had more fun today but I think it's not good to play this way. 2 against 1! no matter how good that one is, i think it's not the way we play. Joseph asked for commets tonight. Well, what is his commet toward me? I am afraid to know...
Close every door to me, except the door to friendship.
Hide all the world from me, except the world of truth.
Bar all the windows, but let me talk free.
Do what u want with me, but let me do the same.
Hate me and Laugh at me, I dont care...
I dont want to be Joseph, why should I be the slave of the king? Freedom is all I want...