First week

We met some middle age and he told me he had lost 3 important things in his life. It was depressing and I know no word can comfort him. We saw a lot of homeless cats. Ivan said it was their home. This afternoon when I got up, it was rainging outside. It becomes cooler. I miss autumn. Why? Yes, we have long holidays in autumn. Well, they come with midterms. Yesterday, when I was in the library. They talked about midterms. I didn't really want to know the exact time for midterms. They seem far from now. But I heard them, I couldn't avoid them.
Daniel is back in SZ now, I knew it. I don't think we can continue with that study group and maybe I should find a quiet place and stay away from the crowd. Can I?
Ivan wanted to buy sth for school. And he asked me whether Rebecca would like to go. Haha, I think they two can hang out together sometimes. I don't think it is so hard as she said to go out with boys. It will be no problem I guess, if she goes out with Ivan. It must be fun. So I phoned her and asked whether she could take him there( hope she knows the way, but anyway she is a smart girl and what she need is independence.) He asked whether she knew the way and she sounded relutant to do that on her own. But I will not give in anyway. I hate odd numbers! I am afraid of being singled out. Now it is Saturday. I don't know what I have done so far. I didn't ask Feynman coz I think he needs some time to do study. Hope I made the right decision and wish them a good time.
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I phoned them just now and I actually didn't need to worry about them. They are shopping now. But I they didn't like shopping~~ People surprise you sometimes. I am watching the special feature for Phantom of the Opera. I didn't like phantom very much before. But after I watched the scene of No One Would Listen. I saw his solitude and sorrow. I don't know if it is I project mine on him or it is Webber's. It is said that it was his love for Sarah. He wanted to rise up and reach the world. What is the world for him? She can complete his world, can't she? I just cannot imagine if there is someone like that can complete mine. I need something else. The echo deep down to be heard, and answers I look for through my life be answer, sth like these. I doubted if Cathy's way is good for Feynman, but maybe she is right. I can say nothing about that for I am confused about my own future. It is misty. I start to understand Ivan's dislike of meeting acquaintances all the time, for me, especially my classmates.
Life is not easy, so I nap