I survived the day

I found an interesting term on Operationg System, page 293. I read this chapter only once when I did the written assignment. But at that time I was scanning through the chapter, as if I was doing reading comprehension... Amazingly I could get the correct answer by getting the main idea of each paragraph and combine them without really understand the main idea. So I am rereading the chapters. The term is deadly embrace. This resource allocation graph is like the relationship among the main characters of dramas or tv shows. I believe people tend to avoid this happening, but on the contary they enjoy start with this condition. I think it is like choas. It is the beauty of the world. This law of beauty can be applied to different fields.
Let me show you how we can link the OS to real life interperson relationship. We use the technique of AGING to solve indefinite postponement. So if you are patient enough as u r aging, u will get ur priority increased. Which means you can win your love if your love lasts long enough. You can change people's idea if you can wait and stick to your own. A lot of time, as friends we are preemptive processes. If you are talking to your close friend and he or she sees a beautiful girl or handsome guy (example from Muppala) , he or she will push you away. It is true and people do that without noticing. Hah, I don't know. But Daniel says it is natural and we cannot blame any GUY for being 重色轻友. So we have to live with that and get used to being preemptive process.
I was "joking" to Amber about commiting suicide. But actually I was quite serious last night. Reading the proofs of NP-complete is tough enough let alone prooving them myself. Like how Diana felt the day before, I felt desperate. But unlike her I cannot reschedule my exam. Diana got a lot of pressure these days. She cried for the thoughts of not getting pass. I started to concern I might get B- or even worse for some courses. For the math144, I used tables in textbook but I didn't know about prof's table. They are different! I just did the problems by guessing. Luckily I was able to get above mean though not a SD. (Because I didn't do well for midterm so I was hoping for a above SD score... but I have to admit that I didnt put enough effort into it especially competing with bunch of students who studied statistics before and maths students.) BTW I do need the grade if I want to go exchange... But never mind. I guess I will try to kill myself next time, I didn't go out with Cathy ONCE! But I went out with Ivan a lot!!! It is like she is my preemptive process, but you know, she is not. I don't believe in the preemptive example given by Muppala... Anyway... I move on...
BTW did I tell you that Diana changed her ticket and she is leaving on 23? She couldn't do the exam today, too stressed. When I comforted her, I wanted to cry too! hah~ I called my parents but you know, cannot really tell them how scared I was. I just said I didn't do well and I am sorry.
Zhou Xiang and I discussed about the BIG marriage today. She said she was practical and wanted to marry to a rich family like the girl in the news. I said it just didn't matter that much if I marry a guy with billion dollars or several thousands. You can be happier if you want to. She was exclaiming how lucky they were to be born in that family... I didn't know what to respond. It is like I didn't know her! I mean you cannot pick your parents, your apperance, sometimes even your intellegence... Why bother admiring those 'lucky' ones? Does she really love him? Is she really happy? Will this marriage last long? Won't she feel bored being full-time housewife? Won't she lose her intellegence and ability to survive in this society? I know they can write their fairy tales and make it beautiful but we will never know the truth... If their 'luck' bothers you, why don't you believe that they are not as happy as seem? Heh... I didn't tell her this... I don't want to argue or fight... After all we are after different things.