Last dinner

I had the last dinner with Ivan at the UC, which reopened recently. It actually looks better now. A bunch of exchanges came for farewell I guess. So were we.
I met DY Yueng there! He is a really nice person. I havent taken any of his courses, but according to his English and his clear mind when we were talking, could not be bad. He was with two small boys, and I thought they were his boys. But Rebecca said his son graduated...
Ivan and I talked a little bit about Globe group project. Ivan said he was sorry that not so many people cared about environment. It is okay. I used to have a lot of concerns but now not as much. I just get used to people's apathy and that they saying that I am too serious and strange. I guess I just get used to all these great remarks! Plus, even the pollution or running out of resources will not make human being die out, they will kill each other anyway. Keren said they are still expecting their winter. Yes, that could be because of global warming. But the real reason is unknown yet. I told him sth. about our comp251. I in fact kinda confused and mixed all those languages. SML, Prolog, scheme... But they are amazing! I also told him sth. about the language translation. But since I don't know much about it, I just cannot say too much. You don't expect me to tell him about CFG and all those stuffs, right? Then I shared my idea about the Peach Blossom Fan. I know I am a serious person, so I kinda avoid talking about big issue to please others, so I did. But that doesn't work. Talking about acdemic can bore others as well. Anybody can just live without me --- I always have this feeling. And I think it is true, I won't say I cant live without you to anyone. But for my real friends for lifetime, living without you will be painful. But no matter how hard it is, I move on. But so far, the real friends still stay in my life, I didn't lose them. Pray for their good health! Hah.
In the end Ivan paid for the bill, but I asked him to. So it is not that good. I am grateful but as he joked "DO I MAKE A LOT OF MONEY?" I felt guilty. But he will and I can treat him if he wants. Sometimes money dosen't matter that much, but when it comes to others' money, you just have to think about it. When he pays I always feel sorry for his parents. Haha, wasting their money on me.
Then I talked with Field for some while. She is going to Eypt!!!!!!!!!! I always want to travel with good friends. (I have been using SSH a lot, now I have get use to backspace and avoid using delete key. )
I was not sad as expected at the beginning of the semester. Maybe I will not be sad for anybody's departure, even when Field was leaving for UK. I just know I can always find this person if she or he is my real friend for a lifetime. If she or he is not the real friend, then just let it be. Field said she wanted to be single, is that because she doesnt trust them? I don't know, didnt go deep into it.
By the way, Yuyu came just now. I mean I am in the barn and he came to the barn for his CD left here two days ago. I had similar experience. Then we discussed about the huma course. He still had problem with the Justice to Dou E. I think we will not be asked about that. Well I always hate part of everything. Because nothing can be perfect right? I mean I can like sth or sb with its or her or his flaws, but I can still say I hate part of it right? Field said she is on my side and it is very sweet for her to say so. But there is no side... Things are not just black or white, there are some grey areas. Well when the grey is dark enough and I cannot stand it any more, it is black for me, even if you say it is grey. After all, they are just relatively black or white. When there is not light, everything just cannot reflect any light, what is the point for saying it is black or white? We just don't have the standard. Mmm, I dont know what I am talking about any more.
Come back to the dinner thing. I didn't say good bye. I guess I could have said sth. nicer. I guess I am at lost of words. You know my English is not good and my facial expression in fact is deceiving. So it is pointless for me to make any effort. I assume Ivan knows what I want to say.
Mmm, should go back to work now.